I have no lust for redemption
I have no lust for redemption
What other things no longer matter to a person like me? Forgiveness, comfort, knowledge, I don’t anticipate the requirement for these either, now that I am here next to you. That separates us, you are concerned for your future, you are concerned about your past, and in that, you are quite discomfited in the mean time. That is the present of course, the mean time between the regretted past and the ominous future, for you, not me, I should state yet again. Death will bring us together again, a good death I hope you will have. A good death is anything that leaves your brain intact and not sedated by a chemical or injured beyond a point. A good death is when you are allowed to fall within your own skull away from pain and all into a place where you are only your identity, and time ends. You are. In ‘You are’ there won’t be the striving or remorse, time not passing is infinite time and you are infinite with it. Pity, though, that it will take your death to bring you here to me when I am right here beside you already. All you have to do is stop for a second, and you will be here too.
Stopping for a second is an act that defies all human experience. It is an act of conscious willpower that is impossible to not be able to accomplish and yet almost no one will attempt such a thing in their lives. Get to where you are going, come back from where you have been, stop and then you’ve overstayed at the risk of not starting again. Are you worried that you will fall beside the track and then breathe your last breath in the desert named “boredom”? So you intend on moving through life, never stopping along the way? Stop for a thought, give up a care, look around at your hands from your eyes, never mind ‘how’, it is that you are there. Where? Beside me.
The two of us hurtle through near-space at 6556 miles per second; we have traveled since we were born. Each care should fly instantly away as we pass it instead you drag it and it pulls at you, the bonded points of your soul stretched and torn, it is no wonder you want redemption, it is no wonder that you want to be free. You should have been free born, not taught easily how to defeat such a thing, your malevolent teachers all about you at nativity, I guess you stood no chance, but now you are next to me. A care is coming up there in a minute and a half from us, 590,000 miles and closing. Will you catch it or let it pass, if it hits us, will it adorn you forevermore?
Defeat the question of existence! Be it resolved for us today it is what you know it to be and nothing takes that away, not that you waste your life pondering a one big thing, it is the little things that smolder you to ash. I only ask one thing of you, in reading this you have already given up something else that you had to do, so what is one more imposition on an already imposed you?
Every value that is not kind, every act that is not love, every striving that is not for a resolve, is wickedness that came from inside the heart of a human. The bad things are often most awful in that they are mundane, inane, and once having flowed into you as an infant, flow out of you for years and years, yet not ever leaving you. You are a compilation of that which is not you, you are things to do and things not to do but you have obliterated you, until you die. Your gift will be the discovery of your self and a comforting reunion seeming to last an eternity. You will not be disappointed in you, because there is nothing you will be expecting from you, so let me ask you to do a thing that you can try and do, and then you can try again, one day you will get it right at least in the very end.
So do this thing that you will do eventually, but do this now and again, for it is the one true thing. You are for a fact flying 6,000 miles every second in a direction that is unknown to us, the second that you become nothing more than whom you are, you will be hundreds and then thousands of miles away from the things that concerned you. So do this, put aside all the slogans and agendas, the expectations, the “what” you do, and become just you. And You Are. Only Are. I just am. This second, now this next one, you’ve done it twice already. That is 12,000 miles of escaping into the unknown, just you and you alone. When you just are, there is nothing left that must be done, you can chose to do nothing and you’re still well begun. If you don’t understand why this is the most important thing there is now, you will in the end. You will understand without remembering, or regretting, or being excited about implementing a new agenda for you, because you will just be what you are. Every second is yet another chance.
You and me, we are, and we are free.